Fences

Today has just not been a good day. I get the thought a decent amount of just cutting myself off from the world around me. The only people I'd stay in contact with is my family and probably my girlfriend. Everybody else I'd cut myself off from. Usually something throughout the day something stops me and makes me think it'd be a bad decision to do. Today the signs are clearer then ever that I should cut myself off and nothing is stopping me. My girlfriend thinks it's a bad idea, but if I'm not cutting her out of my life, she won't constantly tell me its a bad idea. She'll tell me not to the first time I bring it up, but soon will forget about it. So today seeing as I don't even matter that much in the lives of people I care a lot about I'm going start to just cut myself off from the world. Some people might think it's dumb for me to do this, to those people, well at least it'll stop me from crying myself to sleep every night. Something I truly do not enjoy. Today I will build my walls taller then ever and not leave a door for anybody to enter. I'll end this entry with this: I was listening to the song Fences by Paramore and this part of the song stuck out to me "If you let me I could, I'd show you how to build your fences. Set restrictions. Separate from the world."